*A friend once told me, while we were discussing the effect Satan can have on our daily life, on the daily temptations and stumbles, that he uses 3 words to get himself back on track, and to get the lies out of the way: “Stick it Satan!” I admittedly laughed at this declaration, but it got me thinking. Sometimes we do have to be vocal. Sometimes, talking directly to the issue give clarity of mind and gives courage to dispel the sin happening at the moment. This was a few years back, when this conversation between my friend and I occurred, and subsequently, I wrote the words below not too long after. While dealing with my own behavior and sin during a time of heightened stress and a time where my mouth and actions were being ruled by the wrong force, I decided I needed to be more vocal about opposing the evil in my life.
Maybe it’s because I’m a “writer”, maybe it’s because I’ve always found deep catharsis writing out my thoughts, prayers, emotions, etc. Maybe. But it worked. I reconciled that which I had begun to chip away at, and I navigated my mind to the right course. I need these words, this courage again and again and again. If you meet someone who doesn’t have struggles in their walk with Christ…well, then truthfulness and vulnerability just might be some of their stumbling blocks after all. In my experience, I’m always leaving room to grow, to learn, to step back and realize where I’m going wrong with that situation – in that day. It’s tiring, yes. But I do believe in the reinforcement of character. I do believe in the refinement that my Lord performs every chance I allow Him to. It’s a beautiful process. Stunning, in fact. And I wouldn’t want to miss out on more opportunities to be strengthened. Because, oh how I need it. I needed it yesterday, I’ll need it today, and I know I’ll need it tomorrow. So the words below are my personal “conversation” with the Prince of Darkness who perpetually clouds my view from truth. I’m sure you can think of a few choice words you would say to your greatest enemy if you took the opportunity. Be encouraged. Because I know, despite the craftiest lie, that I am not alone in this – this race and the goal which I continually seek. You are not solitary in this race either. Don’t believe that falsehood.
So, you think you can access me anytime you want?
You think you can manipulate my mind and heart till I’m choking on my own sorrow?
You find humor and joy in holding my head in a pool of lies till I black out from suffocation?
You think you can get me to denounce everything I’ve lived for, hoped for and was created for in one lonely moment of despair?
You try to promise me splendor in the eyes of the world if I turn my focus on you?
You think you can feed the pride in me so I puff up with arrogance and place myself of higher importance than others and my Savior?
So you think you can do all these to me and countless more???
Well, you would be right in thinking so.
You have the authority to manipulate this world into corners and crevices.
You can get into the minds of many you desire.
You can turn family, friends and races against each other, brutally breaking their resolve for patience and love they once had.
You can bring tragedy upon the world through disease and murder and hatred.
You can inhabit any creature on earth you wish to in order to spread your dreadful deeds.
But you’ve forgotten one condition.
You can do nothing without the True Authority who allows your temporary reign on mankind.
You will NOT win the war set in motion since the dawn of time began.
You will be defeated every day by those who continue to trust in their Father and Maker.
You will not get anything you desire.
You cannot slither an inch forward, backward or to either side without (even your) King knowing about it.
You are a liar. A fake. A loveless tormentor.
You are worthless to anyone and everything for you have no true power. With an ounce of breath from the mouth of one of your victims, crying out to their Lord and Savior, your rule is extinguished. We may have to constantly fight you with renewed strength every hour of every day. We may have to verbally battle against you when you try to whisper false teachings into our heads. We may have to cry to God in the night and during the day out of fear that we are growing weary from facing you. But as soon as our minds even promote a thought of rescue…The Alpha Omega is there….beside us, blocking out your terror of night with the brilliance of His light. You will never take His flock away. He holds close to those that earnestly seek Him. You are allowed only a very taut leash to do your evil actions.
But you have a master
And he is holding fast to your noose.
And one day, very soon, faster than you’d like
You are going to lose Lucifer.
You will lose on that day
and you will lose tonight,
the next day
and the next.
you will lose with me all these times and all times more.
For I will remember even in my weakness that you do not hold my life’s course
you do not have my heart
and you cannot have my mind, body or soul nor any part of me
for ALL belongs to the One who created me. My Maker and Prince.
So use my insecurities, my greatest fears
use my pride and selfish ambition
use my thirst for approval and ache for outward adornment
use my jealousy, anger, malice, sarcasm, thirst to pretend
try them all just as you do every day you want to hurt me or even worse….
For I know what weapon to use against you.
I know, just as Christ knew in the desert, how to break you down.
His Truth against your lies
You cannot have my heart. You cannot beat me in the long run. You may triumph in small battles of my desires and ambition one day. But the next, I will win against your same tactics. For I am forgiven when I am forced to fall to you, for I willingly surrender at the throne of my Immanuel, and He places my broken self back together again. Stronger. With the Truth once more swelling inside me. Then He turns me back to the world, knowing I was weaker before I came, and stronger now that I have come to Him for repairing. And we will do the dance again tomorrow, maybe a dozen times.
But as you try to break me down and turn me against myself with every passing moment, thriving as you see me weaken…
you better remember that though you may succeed once or twice…
after every time you combat me, I am being renewed by my Father each time
and His patience with me is to strengthen me with more vigor each time I come
crawling back to him.
So next time you try, and each time after that…I will be harder and harder to break.
Because you are only allowed to attack me so I can be built up in His Saving Strength. So I can be used by Him in more ways than ever before.
So you see, you are helping Him, not hurting Him. You may think you’re messing with me, His daughter…but without trials and suffering, I would not produce perseverance.
Without character, I would not increase hope.
And hope is what will kill you.
Hope will not disappoint me.
So bring everything you’ve got at me. It had better be good. Because I prayed to be matured. And you are helping God do that….you….who thought you were fighting against Him.
“For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate [Leigh] from the Love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” ~Romans 8:38-39
“But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that his life may be revealed in our mortal body. So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you.” ~ 2 Corinthians 4: 7-12
“Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” ~ 2 Corinthians 4:16-18