Frisson of a humbled

“Teach me Your way, O LORD,
and lead me in a level path…

I would have despaired unless
I had believed that I would see the
goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.

Wait for the LORD;
be strong and let your heart take courage;
yes, wait for the LORD.”
                                             (Psalm 21:11a, 13-14)

and He inclined to me and heard my cry.
He brought me up out of the pit of destruction, 
out of the miry clay,
and set my feet upon a rock
making my footsteps firm.
He put a new song in my mouth, 
a song of praise to our God;
many will see and fear
and will trust in the LORD.”
(Psalm 40:1-3)
I have found a new thrill.
     My pulse quickens.
        My pupils widen in awareness.
            My face elongates in wonder – jaw ever slightly open,
cornered-lips upward.
I relish the moments He humbles me.
By either one level or to the core – when I’m knocked down a peg or twelve…it’s frisson.
“He humbled you and let you be hungry, and fed you with manna which you did not know, nor did your fathers know, that He might make you understand that man does not live by bread alone, but man lives by everything that proceeds out of the mouth of the LORD.
…For the LORD your God is bringing you into a good land, a land of brooks of water, of fountains and springs, flowing forth in valleys and hills;…a land where you will eat food without scarcity, in which you will not lack anything…
When you have eaten and are satisfied, you shall bless the LORD your God for the good land which He has given you.”
(Deuteronomy 8:3, 7,9a,10)
Knowing my understanding is minute.
My grasp is but a weak wrap of muscle upon solid rock. 
     My clutch cannot contain its magnitude.
                    …the height, breadth, expanse of His nature. 
   My faith is tested. I am sifted. 
May what is chaff, blow away forever. 
May what remains be Himself – indwelling.
I savor discovery: “Oh, this is more of You?”
                                “Oh my limitations are numerous!”
                                “I am transfixed by all yet to comprehend. Do not stop. 
                                    Continue to garner my attention. 
                                      Shock me into submission.
Erase my devilish distraction – for it is insurmountable apart from your Spirit’s deliverance. This I have learned. This I see.”
“Good and upright is the Lord; therefore will He instruct sinners in [His] way. 
He leads the humble in what is right, and the humble He teaches His way. 
All the paths of the Lord are mercy and steadfast love, even truth and faithfulness are they for those who keep His covenant and His testimonies.”
       (Psalm 25:8-10, AMP)

I will continue to wait for refinement. For shiny and new.
     Pure frisson.

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