Connection Confession

CONNECT

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I give abundant praise to my Father for ingraining a particular trait in me from birth: 
         I love people. 

I love meeting new people, learning more about an individual, spending quality time, yet even seasonal friendships…I am incredibly thankful for any person I meet. Experiences both good and bad have irreparably shaped me for the better. For good and beauty. Through learning and sharpening.

      There is a verse, many in fact, on loving others. This particular pair of verses sums it all, in case someone were wondering (which many did).
The summation is this:

“For <sup class="crossreference" style="font-weight: bold; line-height: normal; vertical-align: top;" value="(D)”>the whole Law is fulfilled in one word, in the statement, “ <sup class="crossreference" style="font-weight: bold; line-height: normal; vertical-align: top;" value="(E)”>You shall love your neighbor as yourself.”” 

A very long time ago, when I was even younger, I would read this verse and others like it, and a realization would hit me square in the eye.
      ‘Leigh, you need to love yourself as you do your neighbor.’ 

You see, loving others has never been a problem. And I don’t say that as a boast in myself – for trust me, my flesh wants to be selfish and judge and complain just like my sin-filled humanity demands. I know without doubt that it is His Spirit surging within my imperfectness, turning wretched into loving. I truly thank God for His work within me – drawing me to others with such fervor – through His work in my life. I thank Him often as I know my own humanness.

So loving others – check (most of the time).

But loving myself?
…..um, next question please?
I was pinched with the switching of that command. After all, you’ve heard the adage ‘how can you love others when you don’t love yourself?’
I believe that’s true, but I ignore it most of the time, thinking I’m doing just fine without having to focus on that “small” detail.
      My deep-set sin (one of them anyway) is a total lack of appreciation for my own individuality. It’s so so much easier to connect with others. To focus on their strengths, cheer them on, encourage (how I love to build someone up and see them succeed!!). It stirs passion in me to see the beauty in another’s life not only lived, but realized.
…..just don’t ask me to turn that attention inward.        …seriously, don’t ask please.
But that is not following the commandment.

          Because I can’t help someone realize potential and beauty in the world if I have a self-effacing filter clogging my own perspective. 
I can hold a hand, introduce a world of His perfect love, exhort others in mercy-bathed truth. 
But until I connect with HIS truth
in MY depth-exploration, everyday life
I cannot be free – truly free – to go the distance
in the lives of those I love.

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    Uggghhhhh, I’m sorry sisters….I confess I went over. I broke the main rule of only 5 minutes. Please forgive this disregard…there was confession and truth to be named and I felt like I could not back out of it.

*Deep breath*
      5 Minute Friday – it’ll get you every time.

come. free yourself. be true. observe what you are meant to uncover. link up. encourage your sister who bared her soul before you.

There is so much love to dive into.
Don’t miss yours.

16 Comments on “Connection Confession

  1. How brave of you to lay it all out like that. It is so easy for us to see the good in others, to be the encourager for someone else. It is another matter entirely to do it for ourselves. It requires us to look deeply into our soul and sometimes that is very uncomfortable.

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  2. I LOVE that you went over (so glad I'm not alone!). Absolutely beautiful post, Leigh! I love your honesty and can completely relate. It's interesting though that we can think we are loving others fully, but we can't know how to do this until we understand the love that God has for us- even with all of our sinfulness and our weakness- he loves us!
    You are a beautiful writer!!! Thanks for your post!

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  3. Great post! We women, especially fall to two extremes, either we are so selfish that we neglect others or we are so loving that we neglect ourselves. Finding balance is difficult. The fulcrum can only come from the cross. Hopping over from 5-Minute Friday

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  4. Lynda, your words are sweet. Thank you so much! I have a silly extra confession. I didn't realize THIS was you. I had hopped over to your site not 10 minutes after you posted here, and I didn't realize this was you. 🙂 I was drawn over to your Seams Happy (love the title!) from Lisa-Jo's site. I saw that adorable bird picture and just had to click.
    And now…after I've had my coffee, I realized you posted here with your kind encouragement before I went to you site from another source altogether. 🙂 God is sweet and good. I was meant to read your insightful words you wrote about Connect. So blessed I did. And I'm encouraged by your kindness as well.

    It is uncomfortable, vulnerability. So very, very true. Yet I'm convicted when I hear the still, small voice whisper – “how, then, can you expect someone to be vulnerable with you, if you are unwilling to do so with yourself and even with others to the same degree?” Hard lessons indeed.

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  5. Thank you so much! (Is Daye your first name or last? You don't have to answer that actually, I just LOVE the spelling of that name. Beautiful!)

    Oh you are kind, I appreciate your reading eyes and spelled-out words. They mean a great deal to me.

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  6. Balance is the ever-illusive craft!! In so many areas. I completely agree. Thank you, thank you for hopping over. I LOVE the community this prompt brings. Deeply. 🙂 I'm coming on over to you as soon as I hit send. I am grateful for you. And the complete delicate beauty in your insight: “The fulcrum can only come from the cross.”….my word – that is stunning! So so SO true. I might have to start quoting you on that. Love it.

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  7. haha, oh goodness. I'm having severe blocked-brain moments this morning. I've already visited your beautiful response. Forgive my absent-mindedness. 🙂

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  8. Denise, thank you so very much. I'm thankful you stopped by today. Welcome friend. 🙂 I just hopped over to your site!

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  9. Oh thank you so much for stopping by. I am delighted by your visit and cannot wait to “see” you more through writings. Thank you for blessings and may they shower on you as well!

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  10. Hi Leigh, I am so glad I stopped by. In all my years I don't think I considered this commandment in this context. Thank you. You've given me quite a bit to think about. I'll have to pray about teaching my girls this perspective as well.

    You are wonderfully made in His perfect image and I'm so glad you went over (I do too and I try to edit back but then i'm breaking two rules so I accept having broken one and hit publish) 🙂 Have a wonderfully blessed weekend as you have surely blessed me!

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  11. Diana, you have such kind words and wisdom. Thank you for coming by and sharing that with me. I am just in complete gratitude how the art of the written word and above all, His limitless Spirit can unite the Body in such ways as to bless one another, ultimately directing glory back to the author of beauty Himself.

    Thank you, enormously. You too, sincerely, have blessed me today. 🙂

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  12. Thank you for stopping by my blog and leaving such a kind comment. I love getting to know other bloggers to and I am so guilty of reading other blogs on Five Minute Friday other than the person preceding me. 🙂
    I am my own worst critic and have a hard time loving aspects of me at times…I did a Bible Study recently called, Me, Myself, and Lies…all about loving ourselves and the things we say about ourselves inside and out. I was so convicted from it, but it helped. Have a great weekend!

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  13. Dionne, you do understand! 🙂 And that study sounds great! I'll have to look into it. It has a terrific title. Thank you SO much for coming by, reading, and sharing that with me. I am so grateful!

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