Sometimes Hesitant-Wide


S    t    r    e    t    c    h           open limbs and fingertips.

Stand fast amidst breezes, atop cliffs, through studded forests of shadows.

Be wide, unhindered, unobstructed to the scenes around.

     Plenty are the possibilities when clutched no longer becomes our posture.

I can often enclose around my branches, squeezing shut in locked cages.

  Like an insect, snapping into a ball if the slightest threat breezes past.

And yet other times, I am abandon in her glory.
Usually witnessing nature is its quiet symphony.
There I can be peace. Encompass serene. Live in the vast.

If you’ve ever tried to distinguish something cluttered together, you can find it difficult to understand the intricacies. Yet if that jumble is spread open – details emerge. Lovely specifics stand visible, no longer scraping for space to be seen.
Emerge is the picture of freedom.
Pieces fit together when once scattered is identity found.

Often I live as if standing open for all the things I am is torture-welcome posture.
If I live unbarred, I encapsulate vulnerable. Yet if I live unbarred, I guarantee barbs of dislike, frustration, rejection – those whose angered shushes and rolled-eyes gain power to crumple me…paper thrown away.
None can tell another these threats aren’t true possibility. We live in this world. Judging, broken itself, full of opinion and preference. Even within the Body. Where spurning lash its worst and tragically, often does. 

Still…time and again His love speaks to liberty. To prostrate. To open, complete surrender.
           That is how we’re built to live.
           That is how nails displayed our saving.

“So if the Son liberates you [makes you free men], then you are really and unquestionably free.”                          ~ John 8:36, AMP, emphasis mine

It is Friday. It is time. Join us, link up, encourage a sister, don’t hesitate to share – break bread – with one another. You will only be higher-lifted. 

Today I am quieter. I pause to say emptier, so I shall say muted. Yet I look forward to sharing in this day with my FMF sisters. Let us begin. Dialogue. Let us remind each other how to live. 

10 Comments on “Sometimes Hesitant-Wide”

  1. Again, your deep heart and soul inspire me….there are SO many lines that spoke to me that I do not know that I can even choose one to comment on.

    But this one….
    “Plenty are the possibilities when clutched no longer becomes our posture.”
    ….really sums up what it spoke to me. Being open to receive all…the good, the bad, the ugly…

    Thank you, Leigh, for delivering truth in a way that only YOU can. I am so blessed by it. TRULY.


  2. “Emerge is the picture of freedom.
    Pieces fit together when once scattered is identity found.”

    My husband suffers from a brain injury from a motorcycle accident and the doctors always say that he emerged, rather than awoke, from his coma.

    If emergence is the picture of freedom, then he is certainly still emerging. If identity is found only when the pieces fit back together, then we are not there yet.

    I love this concept though; that identity and freedom are only found when He is revealed. I'm reminded to look for the ways in which the Lord is showing His glory through our struggles.

    Love your style and thought-provoking writing! Thanks!


  3. Oh Allison – you speak such truth and perspective! And I think you understand the fullness of what my small words attempted to convey – “only found when He is revealed”. THAT is the truth I was trying to focus on. Pictures may never look complete. I know the puzzle may always be in continuance, with new shards being discovered, given a place, and used to tell an ever-growing story. We are all on a cyclical journey of emergence. A cycle may even be the wrong way to describe it, for it is not always connected in a sphere, but a jumbled linear, ever-changing motion. I believe that none of us are done until the day we are uninhibitedly His. At Home. I love that verse that says it better than I ever could: “And we all, with unveiled face, beholding the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from one degree of glory to another. For this comes from the Lord who is the Spirit.” (2 Corinthians 3:18, ESV)
    One degree to another. In present tense. Still transforming.

    Allison, I cannot thank you enough for coming here and sharing a part of your journey and insight. You humble me and improve my day at your faithfulness. You have blessed me. I am grateful for you.


  4. Good morning Lindsey! I missed y'all's sweet conversation last night.

    I am just so weary today. I don't know about you. Life is giving me a particularly busy schedule this week and next. And I'm beelining the end of the tunnel to get through each day. It's not a bad thing. It's not eve a full complaint. It's just me, attempting to see the end, in order to joyfully be in the now.

    But on to your sweet words – I am so thankful that you can relate to some of these jumbled words. 🙂 I can only give abundant praise to our Maker that anything my sinful hands can speak, if it be blessing, it comes directly from His Spirit. And oh what a glorious charge! I am happy here, knowing that the connection of words and understanding unite the Body in such ways. Thank you Lindsey, yet again, for your encouragement. 🙂


  5. Leigh, you truly have a way with words. And I want to write John 8:36 on the walls of my home. Love that verse. Love your insight and the depth of your understanding of His love and grace. Yes, it truly is WIDE! #selah


  6. Oh you said a gorgeous word: “Selah”. I love that word. Love its origin and meaning. Love “seeing” your face here and on twitter. Still get excited at the prospect of conversing more, linking to Allume together, from our homes. We should just exchange emails because I have a feeling we would have so much to chat about. 🙂

    Thank you for coming by. Yet again. You bless me continually by just your presence and sweet words.


  7. Oh, Leigh, love how the Spirit was also speaking a word of freedom to you here…and you expressed it well…This sentence spoke to me: “Plenty are the possibilities when clutched no longer becomes our posture.” Did you know “OPEN” is my word for 2012…the word God gave me, and I never even had a word for the year…LOL.

    Missed you last night…pray you are well…hugs to you 🙂


  8. Thank you Dolly! Seeing your hello at the party was a wonderful light of joy. I missed out, but I hope to be able to join next week. 🙂

    How wonderful that you received that word for the year, for God to use to sharpen and grow you. I think that's marvelous and can't wait to hear more about how He's been using that concept for you. Thank you for coming by! 🙂


  9. Oh and how we missed your sweet self last night at the party! But I get the busyness….lately I have been in a steady pace but this summer WAS nuts! What is keeping you busy? Work? Family? Church? All of the above?

    And…it's a pleasure!


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