I have a tendency to make more of things than they may be. [If you listen close, you can hear the sound of a collective sarcastic gasp from anyone that knows me at all…]

Still, when it comes to matters of the heart, of emotion – feeling tends to be stronger than practicality. Particularly when it relates to rejection…

I understand that God made me a person who feels the feels. All of them. And that I can feel big.

Rejection gets to me. Slices deep and separates tissue and leaves a permanent mark. Side effect of the caring big part.

I wish it wouldn’t.

credit When it sneaks into facets of your life. Unpredictable, invasive, worming it’s way through healthiness and systematically degenerating the fruits of living. It can be different for everyone – what fear affects. What its triggers are. How heavy or fleeting it can settle. Deep breath and truth time:       for me     …

Sound Therapy

Music is a poetic enigma that continually keeps my heart in my throat…in the most terrific way imaginable.     It is rhythm, measure, beat, lyric – it is loveliness. I incessantly ache for new discoveries, new songwriters, new genres – for this medium of art fights for the top in its ability to invoke …

Fear and Longing (a revisit)

There is a conflict between having so much to think about, so much to process or talk through, yet having no action of release to express it all. I could have been writing these past few months. There are certainly many things to say. Not necessarily to be heard by anyone else, but for me to …

What I Am

I am a people pleaser. I like to make people happy.      To a fault. I’m skipping past the “It’s good to serve others and the Word instructs us to love others more than ourselves…”     Yes. That is all true. And more. But I’m moving right past that, because what I’m about …

Is it now? How about….now?

In 2004, I received a birthday gift from two kind friends of mine. I started it, I forgot it. I started it, I forgot it. I never got past page 49. Yet I always knew, in the back of my mind, that whenever I did finally pick it up, and not put it down until finished, …